Saturday, 2 February 2013


I have managed to lose some weight, through exercise and cutting out as much processed food as possible from my diet. I am determined to get well and fit, and the Carol Vorderman DS game I got has been a great help. More than I can say about my GP, who I have repeatedly asked for help from, who should have, at the very least, had me get on the scales and noted that I was clinically obese. I told my GP again and again that I was struggling to cope with the triggers that cause panic attacks, and that I was not only eating stuff when I wasn't even hungry, just to smother the pain, but also picking off large chunks of my feet and eating that too. I didnt even realise I was doing that most of the time, but other people did and gave me a nudge to stop me doing it, its like I was in a trance when I was doing it.

I am feeling a lot better for avoiding processed food.

I still feel absolutly terrified a lot of the time. I have been living like that though for years. I feel like they are coming to get me, but I have good reason to feel that way, its NOT paranoia, I have proof that they have persecuted us Pindown victims.

Anyway, I am really pleased I have managed to lose some weight, I can see my waist again and can go upstairs without puffing and panting.


demented said...

Hi Zoompad glad to hear your healthy eating and exercise is paying off.

I feel positive today there has been a breakthrough in the msm with reporting of Elm Guest House which I didn't think I would see.

Zoompad said...

Oh I hope so, I hope and pray this nightmare will finally end.

I have had a very bad day today, just so pannicky and weepy. I had a nice walk on Cannock Chase and it was such a lovely day weather wise, and I saw some deer, and a glorious sunset, but I couldn't really enjoy it until pretty much the end of the walk, it took me so long to calm down. But the good thing is that I did manage not to comfort eat, and that for me is a breakthrough.

I really really really hope and pray that the REAL police (not the abusive ones who disgrace their uniform) will go for the wicked ones, round every last one of them up, because for me and for so many other people, the abuse is not "historic" at all, it's ongoing, because they keep on persecuting us, and will carry on doing so until they are made to stop. I just want it to stop.

Zoompad said...

I've just read your link, Oh God, thank you thank you thank you, at last they have reported it in the newspaper, as usual the BBC have pretended to not see it, as per usual

demented said...

Hi Zoompad

Glad that you managed to enjoy the sunshine, but it is still very cold and I am a terrible wimp and only managed a short walk with my dog.

It really feels like the momentum is now building with the mainstream press, they have been collaborating with Exaro an investigative news bureau and they really are digging into the story. A week ago I felt they were missing elements of the story that were essential to connecting high profile people to the abuse but tonight it has all been reported. So I better say sorry to the journalist I berated.

I have also complained to the BBC about their lack of coverage so i am awaiting their repy. I really feel things are changing after Savile he was a horrific monster but it has given survivors a new platform where they will be believed and taken seriously at last.

Take care Zoompad

Anonymous said...

Belgian MP LAURENT LOUIS sanctioned by the Parliament for exposing the lies of the DUTROUX CASE

Zoompad said...


I have also complained to the BBC about their lack of coverage of the Elm House story, and also the way they covered the Haut de la Garenne abuse story, and that propaganda whitewash-over-the-abuse documentary with Niel Morrissey in it, Care Home Kid. I am also waiting for a reply

Zoompad said...

Oops, I wrote that before looking in inbox, I have had this:

Dear Mrs Richards

Reference CAS-1900730-DYJC7S

Thanks for contacting the BBC.

We understand you feel BBC News has not provided coverage of Operation Fernbridge, the police investigation into historical allegations of child abuse at Elm Guest House, Barnes during the 1980s.

When MP Tom Watson initially raised the allegations in Parliament and called for an investigation into the political links of a convicted paedophile we covered the story at the time:

We provided coverage of any significant developments in the case, including the recent announcement regarding Operation Fernbridge:

We will continue to follow the story and provide coverage of any developments as they become available.

We’d like to assure you that we’ve registered your feelings on our audience log. This is the internal report of audience feedback which we compile daily. It ensures that your points and all other comments we receive, are made available across the BBC.

Thanks again for taking the time to contact us.

Kind Regards

Michelle Wiggins

BBC Complaints

Zoompad said...

This is the complaint that I sent:

Complaint title:
BBC not reporting on Operation Fernbridge/Fairbank

Complaint description:
The BBC news teams are failing to report on institutional paedophilia, and I would like to know why. The BBC documentary Care Home Kid was a whitewash of the systematic child abuse that was happening in Staffordshire. The BBC has also failed to report in an unbiased way on the institutional child abuse which politicians have desperatly tried to cover up at Haut de la Garenne.

Zoompad said...

I think this is disgusting. The BBC know I am one of the Staffordshire Pindown child abuse victims. Their shabby propaganda program Care Home Kid really really upset me. It was disgusting to see their attempt to whitewash over the abuse. They are shameless

Ethel U Plumb said...

well done on weight loss zoompad, keep up your great work, it is helping - thanks

Zoompad said...

I have been having computer problems in the last few days, something called Adware keeps getting on my computer, and my computer keeps freezing

Zoompad said...

I think I know who is responsible for the Asware now.

What I would say to those people is this: repent to the Lord Jesus Christ, and keep your hands from doing the wickedness of the devil. Don't throw away your soul to eternal damnation for to try to cover up your crimes, as the Lord sees everything anyway, He is onmipresent, He made the whole universe.

Zoompad said...

Adware, sorry for typo

Zoompad said...

I have put most of the weight I lost back on again, thanks to the cycle of getting depressed and overeating as a comforter.

I'm not going to beat myself up about it though, because I know why I do it, and so does everyone involved in my "care". I know damned well there are some who would like to see me six feet under, and if I ate my way to an early grave nothing would delight them more, the thought of them dancing with joy on my grave is just the sort of goad that helps me keep dusting myself down again and picking up the pieces to carry on, as Fred Astare and Ginger Rogers said.

I will keep trying, its a case of one step forward two steps back at times, I will keep battling on.

Zoompad said...

I want to make it absolutly clear that I am getting no help at all, and considering all the government quangos I have been referred to that is an absolute disgrace.

I am living testimony to the utter uselessness of those quangos which are getting taxpayers money pumped into them

Zoompad said...

POHWER have been crap, so have Survivors Trust, NAPAC, my MP Bill Cash, my NHS providers in Staffordshire all crap crap crap.