I am so worn out now. I feel utterly powerless. I feel utterly utterly betrayed, see the post below.
I am going to just do a craft blog, just sewing knitting and other nice stuff, I can't fight the paedos any more, they are too strong. The Lord is letting the paedos have all this power, if the Lord lets them do all this what can a little speck of nothing like me do about it?
I don't know why the Lord is letting paedos get away with all this horrible stuff, persecuting the victims of paedo crimes, I just dont know, I don't know why the Lord is letting the Church of Paedos trash His holy name, I just feel sick inside about it, but its the Lords world, He made everything, so if He wants paedos to run riot like they are doing, what can anyone do about it? All I can think is that maybe the Lord is giving all the paedo gangsters a chance to repent, thats the only way I can get my head round all of this, thats the only thing that makes any sense to me. Because I know the Lord is kind, yet why is he letting paedos and gangsters do all these terrible things? The Lord either wont tell me that or I haven't got ears to listen, I feel so tired, so worn out.
I had another really terrible episode on Mothers Day, special days like that trigger weeping fits in me, I just go into a downwards spiral. The paedos would laugh if they saw me that day, they would think it was hilarious, they always did like to call me a nut job. I can't help it, I just feel so broken inside. I thought me writing all about what happened might change everything, but all I feel I have done is just make myself into a laughing stock.
I feel like I can't do anything to stop the paedos any more, its the Lords planet, its up to Him to stop it all, not a microscopic ant like me. I am so sorry, but I have had enough now, I just want to do my sewing and knitting and nice stuff.