Yesterday I had another panic attack, triggered by a telephone call.
I called the Samaritans, because I was feeling very upset, and told the man all about what had happened, but because everything is linked to everything else, I had to tell him about what has caused my mental health problems (PTSD) in the first place, the Pindown abuse and cover up, deliberate systematic persecution by people determined to cover it up and secret court abuse.
I was trying to tell the man about the secret family courts trying to label me with a syndrome that a paedophile had invented (Parental Alienation Syndrome, Richard Gardner) and he hung up on me.
I was gutted, but as always, I am blogging about it, I can't stop this bad stuff happening but one thing I can and will do is make sure it does not go unreported!
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they did that to one of my others too, she was in a bad way and disclosed a small part of her abuse - and was called a time waster and that she'd been told not to call in the past (it was her first call)
Fortunately she called back and the nice person was nice. It was very scary all round though.
I reported it and went in to the office, left some info on DID, but they never found out who it was
Thanks for posting that, it makes me feel better to know I am not the only one.
As soon as I mentioned about the Pindown abuse I felt the conversation chilled. Also, he asked me several times "What do you want" when I had already told him as clearly as possible that I want to be treated like a normal human being by the agencies who are SUPPOSED to be there to serve all of us, ie police, NHS ect with integrity and propriety, as opposed to being treated worse than a criminal or something the cat sicked up.
I do not think I am asking for the moon. Apparently they think I am.
Its not the first time I have phoned the Samaritans and been treated in a creepy way.
I don't believe a word you say. You are seriously messed up. Please get some help or at least a life.
Who the heck are you? You don't work for the Samaritans by any chance do you?
It wouldn't be the first time some malicious moron who works for an agency that is supposed to help people misused their position of trust.
Sorry to hear you had a panic attack. I study epigenetics and am in contact with a fair number of people. Strangely most have had either bad depression and/or a panic attack over the last week! Regarding the Samaritans, avoid them, they are establishment and can only work with an establishment mind. Remember, you have the finest psychiatrist in the world, yourself!
Sorry you had a panic attack. I study epigenetics and am in contact with a number of people that have all had bad depression and a panic attack over the last week or so. Regarding the Samaritans, don't bother with them. They are establishment and can only deal with an establishment mind. You are your own best psychiatrist. don't worry, you are not alone!
I hope you wipe that comment - probably a troll anyway
*everyone* who speaks out abuse child abuse, especially child sexual abuse, is called a Liar at some point - that doesn't make it true
abuse happens a lot, and it's way worse than most are capable of understanding and the effects last much longer
CP, you posted this on your website:
"It is my belief that Britain is being deliberately destroyed from within. Most people are aware something is wrong but are unable to understand why. I believe this is to do with the constant brainwashing the masses are bombarded with, especially on the BBC. "
I couldn't agree more, and have thought that for some time. Some people have accused me of being too cynical, but I know that the people who sent me for child abuse "therapy" to one of the places I was abused as a child sent me there on purpose maliciously, to smash me up, I was pleading with them not to send me there, there was absolutly no need to send me there, even an idiot could have seen what was likely to happen if I was sent there to recount the horrible things that happened to me as a child. I think what is happening to this country is what happened to me, but on a much bigger scale.
Anonymous,
No, I won't be wiping any of the malicious comments left to me on this blog.
I want people to see the crap I have to put up with.
It is my belief that psychiatrists need a psychiatrist! They seem to have a strange idea that one therapy fits all! We are all different. Confronting your past may suit some people but not others. Sometimes bad memories are best avoided, especially if you are very sensitive and caring. I feel your panic attack may have been triggered by the current winter weather. Lack of light can play havoc with the nervous system. Us humans were not designed for a cold climate hence the rate of depression always rises in the winter. I'm in touch with a fair number of people suffering PTSD, strangely many of them had a panic attack on Monday and Tuesday? Those days, especially in the south of England were particularly dark and cold. You are a very strong person and I guess you have a deeper understanding of the suffering of others, due to what you have been though and the PTSD you are now suffering. Looking at this from another angle, in many ways it can be an advantage as your perception is heightened. Don't worry about nasty comments, people that go out of their way to upset others have a problem, in that sense they are to be pitted. It's best to ignore them. Responding to them fuels their evil joy.
They sent me to St Georges Psychiatric Hospital on purpose. They knew I had been put there as a child, after I screamed the place down at Chadswell Assessment Centre. They knew all that because I told them, also it is in my medical records, they would have had to murder too many people to cover all that up!I begged them not to send me there, but they lied to me to send me there, they told me there was no other possible venue for councelling (there was!) and they were determined to send me there. They knew damned well what was likely to happen. If you saw where St Georges Psychiatric Hospital was you would understand, it is an old creepy looking building, the road I had to walk down to get home had that looming omniously on my left and Stafford Prison looming on my right. They basically sent me to one of the nastiest and most inappropriate places in Stafford for child abuse therapy, and they did it on purpose to break me down, because I am too vocal about the Pindown and secret family court scandals!
The panic attacks are triggered by the complete powerless I feel at times. I think you are right about me needing more light though. I try to keep close to God, and pray to Him when I get upset, try to.
The nasty comments - I know how much the paedotrolls hate and detest anyone who is trying to expose what they have done and are still doing. I suppose it is an occupational hazard. They will all reap their reward for being so wicked one day, I am just a witness to the devilment, the Lord will give all of us our just reward. I hope the paedotrolls realise that hell is for all eternity, Jesusw did make that quite clear when he told the parable of Lazarus and Dives!
My Hotmail account is down again!!!!
I don't trust that hospital AT ALL - Pat Howlin lied in court as did Dimashaw Master (SHRINK pal of hers) - your calls could be being diverted to press or police - it happened to ME - very scary criminals behind it Barb - we have rattled them and they are cross - but - they are going to pay : )
"your calls could be being diverted to press or police"
I never thought of that possibility! Thanks for that.
Given my experience of the Samaritans, what you're reporting is entirely credible, Zoompad.
As another poster has said, they're yet another arm of the establishment. Their purpose is to 'manage' people's valid distress. This valid distress should be practically dealt with at root cause, not just shushed up - however kindly meant.
When that fails, they then condone suicide.
Seriously, anyone who's reading this, please know that the Samaritans are NOT there to save people from ending their lives - despite the spin.
Their official policy is to not talk a caller out of such action, but to stay on the phone with them until they pass out or die. "To keep them company whilst they die" is the way it was related to me by a Sam.
Surely I'm not the only one who sees this as totally fucked up?
Yes.
The Samaritans used to be good at one time, because when I was being abused as a child I called the Samaritans and she really did actually try to help me, she turned out to be my french lecturer at college, and because I had been at college with a black eye she had asked me how I got it and I lied to her to cover up that my brother had punched me one. But when I phoned up the Samaritans that night and told the lady on the other end that I was being abused and had been punched to the floor she knew it was me, and she came round to my house. I wasnt ready to face up to the stuff at that time, all I wanted was for the abuse to stop, but I remember how kind she was, that was 40 years ago. I think things have changed a lot, because now if you call the Samaritans you dont necessarily get someone local, but now all these agencies that are SUPPOSED to only have an agenda to help people are used to spy on people, because MI shitbags have infiltrated everything now. I think the military secret services need opening up and disbanding, because they are supposed to be there to protect the citizens of the country, not to be prying and mucking people who have suffered institutional abuse around and trying to shut them all up to prevent a national scandal, but thats exactly what they are doing, and it is wicked and illegal.
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