I know this may not seem like a big deal, but it is to me, because I am so traumatised with all the crap I have been through.
Once trust is lost it is very difficult to regain it. I've put off going to the doctors for so long, and its thanks to a consultant I met at the Stafford Hospital enquiry plus someone I know who has recently had an operation that I have had the courage to make a much needed appointment. Plus, the GP I have chosen to see has been very kind to me in the past.
I want to put out a plea to any NHS staff who really care about healing people in the chance that they might be reading this: please, be very gentle with the people who have fragile personalities due to past abuse, and don't assume that a person who has been treated in an unkind and illegal way is automatically going to want revengeful retribution, especially if that person happens to be a follower of Jesus Christ, the man who forgave the whole world for murdering him.
It is a very big step I have taken today, in choosing to trust the organisation that has already hurt me so many times. May the Lord bless my courage, and may only good come of this.