I know this may not seem like a big deal, but it is to me, because I am so traumatised with all the crap I have been through.
Once trust is lost it is very difficult to regain it. I've put off going to the doctors for so long, and its thanks to a consultant I met at the Stafford Hospital enquiry plus someone I know who has recently had an operation that I have had the courage to make a much needed appointment. Plus, the GP I have chosen to see has been very kind to me in the past.
I want to put out a plea to any NHS staff who really care about healing people in the chance that they might be reading this: please, be very gentle with the people who have fragile personalities due to past abuse, and don't assume that a person who has been treated in an unkind and illegal way is automatically going to want revengeful retribution, especially if that person happens to be a follower of Jesus Christ, the man who forgave the whole world for murdering him.
It is a very big step I have taken today, in choosing to trust the organisation that has already hurt me so many times. May the Lord bless my courage, and may only good come of this.
2 comments:
It went ok, my GP was really nice. It's just a shame that I got so traumatised with what happened with the corrupt secret family court stitch up and the bad treatment I recieved at Stafford Hospital, that I got so scared of going to see my GP. I just got so frightened that I mistrusted everybody, in case they joined in the persecution. I know I ought not have done that, because I realise that some people in Social Services and the NHS and also the police have certainly not joined in with the wicked persecution at all, and have done their best to defend me.
Anyway, I have done it now, praise God, and I am really happy about that.
Trauma can affect you physiologically- raised cortisol levels in the blood, change in brain chemistry, and associated problems, it is worth looking into it.
From my memories about a dozen GP's I've seen about all kinds of ailments they have all been really nice to me (skin problems, need of ENT specialist etc)
My uncle had a terrible time with the church as a kid, but these days I just tell him there aren't problems like that in the church in this generation anymore so don't worry
Post a Comment