Saturday, 5 November 2011
I WILL NOT ALLOW IAN EVANS TO ASSASSINATE MY CHARACTER
When I was 11 years old, I was being raped and punched about by my brother. I didn't have anyone I could tell, how could I talk to my parents about what he was doing? A teacher at my school did try to draw me out, I know now that he realised something was not right at home, but I was too scared of the teacher to talk to him about anything like that.
So I was locking myself in the bedroom and screaming, playing truant from school, and basically behaving in such a weird way that my mum and dad called Social Services, because they didn't know what else to do.
It ended up with me being put into Chadswell Assessment Centre, a Pindown home, similar to Haut de la Garenne but much smaller. They used the same cruel system at the home though, locking children up in a cell to "discipline" them, and there was sexual and physical abuse going on. They were letting people into the home to have sex with the children.
I had a nervous breakdown while I was there, because of what they did to me, and they transferred me to St Georges Psychiatric Hospital. I was 14 years old, and was kept there for a year. They kept me on a mixed adult ward, and one of my most vivid memories was seeing old men shuffling down the long corridor between the ward I was on and the art and craft therapy and recreation area. These men could not speak, they just sort of mumbled and groaned, and shuffled about. I was told by the other patients that they had been lobotomised. The other patients told me lots of things - because I was only 14 some of the older women called me "The Baby". They told me what a lobotomy was, and I was horrified. I remember it all so well, because the horror of it has made it stick in my mind, like a video. I can remember so well seeing those poor old men shuffling and mumbling down that long corridor.
My medical notes clearly show that I was not mentally ill while I was incarcerated in St Georges. I have the psychiatric assessment for proof. They kept me there because they did not know what else to do with me. They knew I had been abused, but they just didn't know what to do. That is why I have said that I can forgive the people who let me down so badly. I know that some of the people, although they let me down, didn't do it out of sheer maliciousness.
However, the abuse has gone on and on and on. I have been treated in a strange way so many times. It was as if someone had a secret file on me, with malicious things written in it. I won't go into details here, but I think other Pindown survivors will understand exactly what I am talking about.
I was dragged through the Secret Family Courts in such an aggressive and malicious way. It went on for 7 years, and for two of those years I was being attacked on the Mothers for Justice site, where some friends of John Hemming had tricked the Christian lady who has set up the site to allow them to run the Admin. They attacked me for 2 years, because I was posting the truth about Richard Gardner and Ralph Underwager, who were paedophile psychologists who set up the False Memory Syndrome Foundation, and Gardner invented Parental Alienation Syndrome, which is being used all over the UK in the Secret Family Courts. So while I was going through this dreadful illegal torture in the secret courts I was also being bullied on a website set up to help people who were being tormented in the secret courts! And Nigel Oldfield the paedophile who ran a paedophile ring whilst serving a prison sentence for paedophile activity was one of the people who was persecuting me on MFJ. There were other "Orees" who were persecuting me there as well.
So I have spoken out about this. I have spoken out about this just as I tried to speak out about the abuse I suffered as a child. I did manage to tell my Dad before he died what I had suffered. Dad was really upset. I was not allowed to talk about this stuff, everyone wanted to shove it all under the carpet as if nothing had ever happened, but going through the secret family courts made me so ill that one day I broke down in my parents house, Dad didn't know what to do, and I was just crying and crying, and I was finally able to tell him stuff that ought to have been sorted out decades before. Dad told me a few things that I had not known as well, and I am glad that this happened before he died. My Dad tried to be a good Dad, he told me that he wished he'd been a better Dad to me, and looked after me better, but I told him that I didn't blame him for the abuse, and I had a lot of good memories of my childhood, as well as those awful ones.
I am in my 50's now, a grown woman, some would say a bit past my sell by date. At any rate, after all of this I don't think anyone can seriously expect me to put up with having my character assassinated and not say a word to defend myself.
So when Ian Evans posted this on his blog yesterday I hit the roof.
I would love to know what you think of the moral standing of John Hemming Ian.
As his private life has recently been splashed over the newspapers in the last couple of days. And I do believe Zoompad is not to keen on him either .
November 4, 2011 6:50 PM
Ian Evans said...
To be honest, I know nothing of his private life, and furthermore, I couldn't care less about what a man does in private, excepting for rape, child abuse and murder.
The only thing of concern is getting Jersey's criminal administration finished off forever!!!
November 4, 2011 6:57 PM
Perhaps you should look at Zoompads comments about the man, on the voice blog. As you profess to be anti child abuse(which I don't doubt by the way) you might find her comments interesting if not disturbing.
November 4, 2011 7:07 PM
Ian Evans said...
Zoompad tends to drift into alternate realities from week to week and falls out with many many people over the course and duration of her rants.
Indeed, things have gotten so bad that I have (reluctantly) had to disassociate from her.
November 4, 2011 7:26 PM
This is my reply to that blog post comment he made about me. I note that, just as I suspected, he has not got the gumption and integrity to post my reply on his blog. I knew he wouldn't, so I took the precaution of posting it onto my own blog
POSTED ON IAN EVANS JERSEY EVENING PROPAGANDA BLOG:
Ian Evans, I doubt very much that you will print this so I will also be posting it onto my own blog.
Don't you dare try to portray me as a ranting lunatic. You never replied to my question about Brian Clare, and that is the real reason you have had to "dissassociate yourself" from me, as you so delicately put it.
So I will take the opportunity to ask you again - the same question that you have consistently refused to answer - HOW DID BRIAN CLARE KNOW I WAS STANDING SLAP BANG NEXT TO YOU AT THE TRAFALGAR SQUARE RALLY WHEN I HAD NEVER MET EITHER YOU OR HIM IN MY LIFE BEFORE AND WHY DID BRIAN PRETEND TO KNOW ME AND ALSO PRETEND TO KNOW OTHER PINDOWN ABUSE SURVIVORS?
4 November 2011 13:05
Anyone who is interested in this saga can look through my past posts to see what happened at the Trafalger Square rally, as it's all been recorded.
The accusation that I fall out "with many many people over the course and duration of her rants" is a particularly nasty one. Yes, I am well known for my blunt no nonsense way of talking. But the point Ian Evans is making about me is that I am some sort of a demented woman that falls out with people without good reason, and that is a character assassination and I will not allow anyone to do that to me.
Ian Evans could have replied to my many queries about the Brian Clare mystery, but he chose to try to shove it all under the carpet, and treat me like an idiot.
I am worried about John Hemming's involvement with Stuart Syvret's campaign to help the HDLG survivors, because of my own personal experience of how John Hemmings "helps" victims of abuse. I was really worried when Stuart went to stay with him at his London flat - if indeed it is John Hemmings London flat, and not, as has been said, TREVOR Hemmings London flat.
I would still like to know how the Farce bloggers knew that Stuart was sleeping on a sofa. That might seem to be very unimportant, but if indeed Stuart did sleep on a sofa (I have asked him but he won't tell me) how did they know? Who told them?
It is all a big mystery, but as a Christian I know the Lord will make all things known in the end. At any rate, I am not going to allow people to pull me apart on an Internet blog and not try to defend myself!